Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Two Things Tuesday (5/27)

1.  Jack has been running a fever (anywhere from 99* to 103*) since yesterday afternoon. 
He feels pretty darn miserable.  I wish I could say it was just teething (he's cutting two top teeth that are taking FOREVER to break all the way through), but I think it's an infection of some sort. 

2.  I made a "discovery box" for him this weekend using a cardboard box and leftover ribbons (thanks, Sister!). I need to make the holes a little bigger for some of the thicker ribbons, but I think, overall, it's a neat idea. It shows cause an effect, and it also helps him practice manipulating small things. 

Sunday, May 25, 2014

29 Weeks - Pregnancy #3

Each Sunday, I'd like to do a highlights post, including a picture, summarizing the differences in my pregnancy from week to week.  I totally "grabbed" this idea from Kelly.  I did this with my pregnancies with Hadley and with Jack, as well, and I still think it is a great way to jot down the things that I don't want to forget later on. 


Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along:  29 weeks - Third Trimester

Size of baby:  Baby Girl is 17 inches crown to feet and weighs as much as a small cabbage (about 2 1/2 pounds--the ultrasound technician said she weighed 2 lbs 5 oz at my appointment last Tuesday.)

Total weight gain/loss:  I have gained 19 pounds so far.

Maternity clothes:  I *heart* maternity clothes :)

Gender:  A very upside down baby girl :)  Hoping she'll make that big turn in the next few weeks!

Movement:  I think she's active.  I feel her mostly when I'm holding Jack before he goes to sleep and at night when I'm lying down.  I also feel her a lot during my NST's each week (non-stress tests).

Sleep:  It's broken up into three- and four-hour segments.

What I miss:  Sleeping on my back and sleeping through the night without waking up to make two or three trips to the bathroom

Cravings:  Sweets

Symptoms: Acid reflux before falling asleep; restless legs

Exercise: I walked with Jack almost every afternoon this week, and I did Pilates a couple of times.

Belly Button in or out: It's flat but pokey.  :(

Wedding ring on or off: On :)

Happy or moody most of the time: It's been a pretty good week!

Looking forward to:  Receiving the results from my glucose test sometime this week.

Best moment this week: Some much-needed good news and some big-time answered prayers.  We're hoping for even more this week.  I'm looking forward to sharing with you the big things God is doing in our lives very soon!

Sunday, May 18, 2014

28 Weeks - Pregnancy #3

Each Sunday, I'd like to do a highlights post, including a picture, summarizing the differences in my pregnancy from week to week.  I totally "grabbed" this idea from Kelly.  I did this with my pregnancies with Hadley and with Jack, as well, and I still think it is a great way to jot down the things that I don't want to forget later on. 


Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along:  28 weeks - Third Trimester!!

Size of baby:  Baby Girl is 16 inches crown to feet and weighs (according to the ultrasound) 2 pounds 5 ounces

Total weight gain/loss:  I was still at 18 1/2 pounds gained at my last appointment on Friday.

Maternity clothes:  Anything that's cozy and doesn't squeeze my burgeoning belly too tightly

Gender:  Still a girl ;)

Movement:  She's pretty good at letting me know she's there!

Sleep:  Um, not awesome, but I guess it could be worse.

What I miss:  Sleeping on my back; sleeping through the night

Cravings:  Sweets

Symptoms: Acid reflux around bedtime (most nights I take a Tums before bed just in case) and restless legs (those are a pain!)

Exercise:  Not much.  Just walking to the park or around the neighborhood a three or four times.  

Belly Button in or out: *...............*

Wedding ring on or off: On :)

Happy or moody most of the time: Pretty good except for one or two days.

Looking forward to: Getting my glucose test over with this week!

Best moment this week:  Seeing Baby Girl on the ultrasound.  Her head's up near my ribs, and she's facing the left side of my body.

28 Weeks

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

27 Weeks (and 2 days) - Pregnancy #3

Each Sunday, I'd like to do a highlights post, including a picture, summarizing the differences in my pregnancy from week to week.  I totally "grabbed" this idea from Kelly.  I did this with my pregnancies with Hadley and with Jack, as well, and I still think it is a great way to jot down the things that I don't want to forget later on. 

Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along:  27 weeks

Size of baby:  Baby Girl is 15 inches crown to feet - the size of a cucumber

Total weight gain/loss:  I've gained 18 1/2 pounds so far.  I hate being weighed now.

Maternity clothes:  Maternity pants, shirts, skirts, and cotton shorts and t-shirts

Gender:  A baby girl who is very active

Movement:  I think she's very active.  During my NST's every week, her movements are recorded, and she seems to really be moving in there.

Sleep:  I wake up two to three times a night to go to the bathroom.  I was hoping this wouldn't hit until my last trimester.

What I miss:  Sleeping on my back

Cravings:  Chocolate milk

Symptoms:   Back aches and super tired/sore feet

Exercise: I did pilates three or four times, and Jack and I walked to the park almost every day.

Belly Button in or out:  I don't want to talk about it.

Wedding ring on or off: On :)

Happy or moody most of the time:  I'm really working on being happy.  Really working on it.  Some days are better than others.

Looking forward to: Getting the glucose test that I have to take next week over with.

Best moment this week:   The days when Jack wasn't in teething pain :(
But, look at this super sweet shot my mom captured a week or so ago!

Here's my picture for 27 weeks--it's super blurry (I feel like I'm carrying her higher than I carried Jack), so I added one below it with my niece at her dress rehearsal...I'm not standing up straight, but the belly is still pretty obvious ;)



Sunday, May 11, 2014

11 Months!

Jack REFUSED to sit or lay still to take his 11 month picture.  Every shot was a blur of skin and diaper. 
So. 
Here's his update sans picture :(
He weighs close to 18 pounds now and is 28 1/2 inches long. 
He's crawling everywhere and is pulling up on everything. 
He's got 4 teeth (two middle bottom teeth, one middle top tooth, and one side top tooth), and he's cutting at least one more. 
He loves waving "hi" to people, but he also uses that motion to get people closer to him and to tell others he wants something. 
He eats pretty much anything that gets near his mouth during meals (lots of puréed veggies and fruits, oatmeal, yogurt, cottage cheese, sharp cheddar chunks, turkey slices, black olives, frozen blueberries, Cheerios, plums, bananas, feta cheese).
He does a really good job of playing by himself during his independent playtime each day for 30 to 45 minutes most days. 
He loves swinging at the park and seeing all of the ducks, and he loves going on walks in the stroller in the neighborhood. 
He's a snuggler, and a giggler, and a ball of energy with tons of smiles. We love him to pieces, and I'm incredibly thankful I get to be his mom and celebrate my first official Mother's Day with him.



Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Two Things Tuesday (5/6)

1.  I'm sooooo proud of The Husband. 
He was tasered in class a few weeks ago, and tonight he was maced. He fought through the pain, and he followed orders. So, so incredibly proud of his courage and resolve to do what needs to be done. 

2. This boy and I walk to the park quite regularly these days. 
We enjoy the swings and seeing the ducks. 
And, then we walk home and take a bath. :)
With our own duck (courtesy of The Bestie), of course. 

Sunday, May 4, 2014

26 Weeks - Pregnancy #3

Each Sunday, I'd like to do a highlights post, including a picture, summarizing the differences in my pregnancy from week to week.  I totally "grabbed" this idea from Kelly.  I did this with my pregnancies with Hadley and with Jack, as well, and I still think it is a great way to jot down the things that I don't want to forget later on. 


Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along:  26 weeks

Size of baby:  Baby Girl is a little over 9 inches long (crown to rump)--the size of an  average rutabaga --  13 1/2 or so inches crown to feet

Total weight gain/loss:  At least 16 pounds so far.

Maternity clothes:  Whatever is comfortable and allows me to be on the floor with Jack.  Shorts, shirts, dresses, skirts, pajamas.

Gender:  A sweet baby girl

Movement:  I feel her move quite a bit, but I really feel her when I'm holding Jack.

Sleep:  Sleep has been fine.

What I miss:  Sleeping on my back

Cravings:  Food.  :)

Symptoms:   I've been having some of that back pain that I have had with my previous pregnancies.  It's painful, but tolerable at this point.

Exercise: I've walked a bunch in the neighborhood and down to the park this week.  I even did pilates a few times, as well.

Belly Button in or outBarely in

Wedding ring on or off: On :)

Happy or moody most of the time:   Pretty good :)  The Husband's mom was in town for a few days while my parents were on vacation, so we got to hang out a bunch with her.  She really enjoyed her time with Jack :) The three of us went to the park together, and she took a few pictures.
Yes, yes, I'm rocking the mom ponytail.

My attitude has been better as I focus on the gifts in my life rather than focus on the things that irritate/frustrate/anger/ me.  It's gotten easier every day.

Y'all, The Husband tried (unsuccessfully) to take my picture this afternoon with my phone.  He was being silly, and therefore almost every shot I have is either me blinking or making a weird, questioning face.  This one was decent but not great.  Oh well.  Maybe next week's will be better!

  

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Thankful Thursday (5/1)

Words.

Words are powerful.

Drag you down.  Lift you up.  Wrap you in truth.  Smother you with lies.

For the last, at least, six months, words have tormented me.  Lies have seeped into my innermost being and threatened to swallow me whole.  I have tortured myself with these lies, with these daggers.  I have been brought, brought myself really, so low that a new day didn't seem like a gift.  More like a curse.

I have felt like a failure as a wife, as a mother, as a daughter.  As a Christian.   I had truly begun to believe the lies that satan was spewing into my thought-life.  I was bitter, angry, mean-spirited, harsh, cruel, and any other word you can think of to describe someone living far from truth.  Far from Christ.

All because I let myself believe that our current situation was the end of our journey.  That we were stuck.  For good.  I have felt desperate to get out of this hole.  Get away.  Move on.  And, I couldn't see a way to do that.  To be honest, I still can't sometimes.

I have WANTED to be kind and compassionate.  Slow to anger and quick to listen.  I have wanted to be those things that I pray over Jack each night.  The things I pray for our sweet baby on the way.  But, I have yet to be them.  Because I haven't asked.  Well, I asked a few times, but mostly, I've just stewed.  Stewed in my depression and lack of joy.  I hid it from the outside world lest I should feel like even more of a failure.  I led others to believe that everything is magical and rosy and one giant fairy tale come true.  A lie of omission.

Words of untruth.

And, then.

Thank God there's usually an "And, then" moment.

I started reading One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp.  Several people a few years ago had recommended this book.  The name made me curious but never enough to actually buy the thing.  The library didn't have a copy, so I gave up.

And, then.

Mrs. Voskamp writes a blog, and my friends Linda and Kathy often share those blog posts on Facebook.  One caught my eye.  I read it, felt convicted, but not nearly enough so.  But, in my haste to leave the page, I did see that there was a picture of her book cover.  I remembered my friends sharing with me what a beautiful book it was.  I remembered I was interested in reading it at one time.  So, I browsed online for it, and there happened to be an excerpt of the first chapter here.  I clicked on the picture, the excerpt popped up, and I couldn't stop reading.  I splurged and bought the kindle version and picked up right where I had left off.   If I'm not taking care of Jack or doing chores or spending a few moments with The Husband when he's home (or writing on this blog), I'm reading it.  I can't begin to tell you how her words have affected me.  They just have.

They lit a spark.

Then, today, I read this story of a family who was in the midst of those severe tornadoes that hit the South recently.  Y'all, I bawled.  I'm going to be completely upfront with you right now and say that if you don't have five minutes to let the tears pour down, a box of tissues handy, and possibly a friend to hug afterward, then maybe you shouldn't read it.  I didn't have a friend to hug at the moment, so I did the next best thing. I sent the link to The Bestie and to my sister, and then I cried some more. And, then I thought and prayed.  At one time, not so very long ago, I, too, felt that assurance, that deep trust in the face of losing so much, and much hope followed. 

Words.  The words of that blogger, the words of her grieving friend, the almost-prophetic words of her son.
Those words lit another spark.  

I want to be lit fully.  I want to be on fire again.  On fire for Jesus.  On fire for life.  On fire for my family.

My apologies.  I know that was a very long, very word-y introduction to today's "Thankful Thursday" post.

Here goes.

Today, I'm thankful for:

1.  The gift of eye- and heart-opening words.  Spoken or written truth.
2.  The 4:45am snuggle session in the quiet darkness of Jack's room that I had with my boy as he struggled to find sleep while fighting with the pain in his aching gums.
3.  Silliness and laughter.  Anytime.  Anywhere.  The joy is returning.

Today, I'm thankful for the life to enjoy these gifts. Lord, that I might not take them for granted anymore.